I need to apologize to some people in my life. To neighbors, friends, co-workers, people I sat by in church: I need to apologize.

Let me explain: Ever since I was little, when something got complex, I would run. Not because I didn’t believe I had insight. But because I didn’t trust in myself enough to navigate the complex waters after I spoke out.
I believed that if I offered my voice, I would not be able to answer the questions. I didn’t have the confidence that I would be able to say the perfect thing at the perfect moment.
The problem word here is the root of it:
Defend.